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Now I’m starting to realize, there’s no one in this world that will love me unconditionally. While I’m alive, there really isn’t anyone who will physically love me or care for me. And it’s such a shame. For that reason I wonder what’s the purpose of even living when no one cares about anybody but themselves? 

As I realize I’m losing so many relationships with people that I only wanted to be able to take care of me, love me, and appreciate me, there’s only one relationship that matters most. The relationship with God is so important, because He is the only constant. God’s love is unchanging. 

I prayed last night, because I’m really starting to see my life drop right below me. I can barely even live for myself, so how can I even be strong enough to live for someone as wondrous as God? I want to change so bad. I want to stop feeling so weak and sad and vulnerable to the evils in this world. I even begged God to take away EVERYTHING I have left and just leave me with nothing but what matters, Him. I envy those who live for God and not themselves, and wish I could be as happy as them. Because how I’ve been feeling lately has only let the devil get to me and tear me apart piece by piece. 

"I will thank the Lord at all times. My lips will always praise him. I will honor the Lord. Let those who are hurting hear and be joyful. I looked to the Lord, and he answered me. He saved me from everything I was afraid of. Those who look to him beam with joy. They are never put to shame. Do you love life and want to see many good days? Then keep your tongues from speaking evil. Keep your lips from telling lies. Turn away from evil, and do good. Look for peace and go after it. The Lord looks with favor on those who are godly. His ears are open to their cry. The Lord doesn’t look with favor on those who do evil. He removes all memory of them from the earth. Godly people cry out, and the Lord hears them. He saves them from all of their troubles. The Lord is lose to those whose spirits have been crushed. Anyone who does what is right may have many troubles. But the Lord saves him from all of them. The Lord sets those who serve him free. No one who goes to him for safety will be judged.” - Psalm 34:1, 2, 4, 5, 12-19, 22 (NIRV)

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